oh freak i feel lyk fuck.
tho HE kinda made it better for me i guess ...
i dun wanna blog.
btw u knw who u are i'm really relally sorry for it okay?
i knw i said sorry to u but u kinda said it was alrite but i'm feeling damn guilty.
ah freak. i tink i owe damn alot of pp sorries.
it could have been a happy day if we hadnt broken up. i don't know but i jux keep tinking abt it. the first and last time we did star gazing at ecp.. counting the no of twinkles that seem to be directed at us. if only the niceties wld remain and the yz incident never occurred, wld we still be happy together? i wished i could stop tinking. erv didn't treasure me, neither did i. i know, he tried to be sweet and stuff but it's true ... his feelings weren't there anymore. perhaps we were jux deceiving ourselves, tinking everything wld be alrite and that we wld really make it. sighx. i remember how i made him promise never to leave me and hug him tightly, really afraid of letting him go. or how i snuggle up to him for comfort and stuff. memories ... they aren't meant to be forgotten, are they? but what's the point of not letting go, when u know there aren't feelings left and they're jux beautiful anecdotes coincidentally peppered with images of him. why am i so affected by a so called anniversary when it is of no importance to him anymore. why are my tears flowing when i know they shouldn. why am i wasting my time crying when i've got absolutely nth towards him anymore? i wonder why. i don't wanna fall in love again cos i don't wanna feel the aftermath of a breakup. i don't wish to know how to cope with guys anymore cos i'm jux afraid i'll make the wrong choice again. and more tears.
// i never thought it was so hard.. i always took it easy.